// ♥ Xuan =) .

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

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陪著我的時候想著她－　郭静

音樂節的煙火　照亮多少人的寂寞
震耳欲聾的全宇宙　裝不下一句溫柔
在你身後低著頭　也沒有　什麼好說
如果你的難過　你的沉默　不為我

和你一起聽的歌
怎麼都變那麼苦呢
最愛的人就在身邊怎麼我都不快樂
原來甜蜜會乾涸幸福會陷入沼澤
才讓天的顏色心的溫熱都變了

你陪著我的時候想著她
你聽不見我的心在喧譁
明明我知道卻裝作沒想法
是善體人意還是傻瓜

你陪著我的時候想著她
你看不見我的笑多受傷
世界有多大只剩下一個她
遮住我的星光還佔領你的善良

那些捨得捨不得通通留給回憶好了
如果你有那麼為難我也不能勉強的
曾一起走過曲折現在誰還能選擇
從此你的內疚我的遷就自由了
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你陪著我的時候想著她
你聽不見我的心在喧譁
明明我知道卻裝作沒想法
是善體人意還是傻瓜

你陪著我的時候想著她
你看不見我的笑多受傷
世界有多大只剩下一個她
遮住我的星光還佔領你的善良

人潮推著我們走
就鬆開了那雙彼此緊緊握著的手
最後的以後 Oh~~

你陪著我的時候想著她
你聽不見我的心在喧譁
明明我知道卻裝作沒想法
是善體人意還是傻瓜

你陪著我的時候想著她
你看不見我的笑多受傷
世界有多大只剩下一個她
遮住我的星光還佔領著你的善良

Smile =)
8:41 PM

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

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16 March 11 (Wed)
overslept, only manage to wake up in the noon 3pm.
tuition postponed to 4pm.
Tuition R & J.
R's maid told me, I'm a good tutor.
Surprising a simple compliment and acknowledgement of someone can make me feels so good. =)
Tuition G & J.

Meet E.Q to do work. Had ice-cream with her and Shi Ngee. =)
Do work at ECP mac, bump into Jierong and Weilun.

15 March 11 (Tue)
Morning was overwhelmed with guilt as I left Mdm Chew slping alone the nite before.
Breakfast was good from CV Hotel. =) 2 Servings...
Head for Pulau Ubin. =))

Had kayaking. =)
Been a real long time since I last kayak.
Pair up with Mr Rizal. Chit chat abit.
It never fails to amaze me how passionate some teachers are.
How they devote decades into education, though they also know they can't change much for certain aspects. Nonetheless, they held on.
And I certainly miss kayaking. Gosh, so wanna commit to it again..
Reminds me of my kayaking expedition during my sec school, Miss Tan and Hui Yin.
I never seen Hui Yin again, but she was one junior who touch my heart.
May all is well for her now.
God Bless.

Bimbo session with the malay teachers, those random casual chat with the senior teachers, random laughter...blah blah...
Lunch was good too. =) 2 serving! haha, and Herni treat me an ice-cream!
Thank God for all the love from all the 'seniors'.
they have treated me like their young sister. =))

After lunch had fish spa! =) lolx..
the last time was about 1.5 years back with Yokie.
haha, soak in for damn long.
*proudly declare: I have smooth legs now. =)
weeh ee weeh *grins*

Time flies..time to head home.
This staff retreat was awesome for me.
it constantly remind me the importance of understanding a person you're working with.
It reminds me to treat people with sincere, and that who I used to be.
It is not tough to humble down and learn.
Am certainly glad to some teachers better, though things may return back the same when school reopen, I'm glad I had a good time with them before.

Many thanks to Miss Chiam, Aisha, Herni, Nora, Siti, Rida, Rizal, Mdm Chew, Mrs Quek, Sharon, Joanna, Miss Seow, Yi Fang, Audrey, June Sim, Sydney, Poh Chin, Chek Seng.
You guys really brighten my day and leave a good memory with me to take on, be it I return to MSHS or not.
This was a good trip.
Thank God.

I did not stick to my usual clique, but stepping out of comfort zone makes me gain alot more.
I do miss them but i really need to get over with my weird thoughts.

Do work at Siglap Starbucks with E.Q.
Had dinner aka supper at Old Hong Kong cafe with E.Q & Shi Ngee.

14 March 11 (Mon)
Staff retreat was kind of boring, or rather, the workshop is really boring.
Manage to spend some time engaging conversation with some teachers, random stuff learnt. =)

Kind of flare up over some trival stuff.
Talk some things out with Miss C.
Had a random night talking with Miss Tong, Mrs Quek and Mr Xu.
haha...weird combination. still, much food for thoughts.

13 March 11 (Sun)
Send sis to Botanic Garden
Meet Jonny and Mike. =)
Had a sweet sweet session slacking with them. =)
tuition G & J

send Mike to Camp. =)

12 March 11 (Sat)
Tuition R.
Send sis to bugis, pick bro, head to da jie's place.
Celebrate Jenelle's 2nd bday. =)
Play mahjong. =)

meet e.q. =)
end up with a drama. lolx.

11 March 11 (Fri)
Meet E.Q, had lunch at ECP Carls Junior.

10 March 11 (Thu)
MC.
E.Q acc me to doc.
Go ECP eat at hong kong cafe.
Sharing. =)

9 March 11 (Wed)
Had a bad rest last nite.
Daddy took car out.
He left a note for me in the morning.
Mixed feelings, pissed, guilt, doubt.
haix..

Contact time damn long. =(

Get car ownership transference done. =)
Officially the owner of my car.
Meet E.Q.
I hate traffic jams! =(

8 March 11 (Tue)
Tuition G & J

Meet E.Q. Had dinner at pastamania, Candy Empire! =))

7 March 11 (Mon)
Felt damn guilty about Sat.
This incident really makes me realise the importance of keeping my words.
Sorry.
Miss Helen Ng share quite a bit with me too..
Indeed..

6 March 11 (Sun)
Chill. Listen songs, did some work..
Tuition R & J.
Tuition G & R.
Meet Jonny, Mike and Chun Fen.
Chill at kovan Hong Kong Cafe.
Love them! =)
Bump into Yulin and Lilin. Sweet sisters. =
Head home did marking...

5 March 11 (Sat)
Knock out, unwell.. =(
slept till nite 9ish.
So damn.. missed an outing with Miss Chua and Mrs Quek.. =(
Woke up head to Zouk.
Help Yin Lee and Eric.
It is good to see all my happy pills.
Glad to know someone like Kun Feng.
And I miss Joyce.
I like those short trips conversation we shared..
will definitely miss her when she heads for UK this August.
Of course i'm missing my two other buddies..
Tiffy, wonder how is her Dance delight, how is her school, did she ride safely...
Wini, how is her army so far? doing good?

4 March 11(Fri)
Facebook is bad.
It just made me feel shaken for awhile.
Though few hours back, I could proudly says I'm proud of myself.
Time needed indeed. Just hope not too long.
Miss Quek though you'll never see this,nonetheless, let's jiayou together! =)
Send Robin & Yi Fang back.
marking test papers and doing statistics is a chore...
*faint*

Meet kris to settle some insurance stuff.
Boo! =s so many things to ponder..
Meet Miss Quek for Starbucks coffee. =)
Go pray at Granny's place.
Then head to ECP find E.Q.
Chat, chill..
很高兴能认识这位好朋友。

Had Mahjong!! =)
nice game but shagged max!
Gambling be a real addict..

3 March 11 (Thu)
Head down Henderson (BSS) CSM.
I got a shocked...
The kids there..haix..poor thing.
可恶，可怒但也很可怜。
Family, brought up, human...
And I really wanna be a soical worker. =s
Volunteer, I wanna be.
It always give me the strength and reminds me who I am and what I wanna do.

Meet Miss Quek for late lunch aka dinner.
She reminds me of Yiting.
And modules studied for Dip CC.

Felt empowered as I share my opinions and thoughts.
The feeling was so familiar. The old Xuan.
Thanks Miss Quek, you have no idea how you empowered me.

Sometimes, all one ask for is so simple.
But it can't be fulfilled.

I miss Miss Chua.
Have not been communicating with her for the whole week.
Haix.
maybe there is Best Before for people in one's life. Even Expire.
Friends..Was added to YJC alumni, found some friends.
Friends who were so dear.
of course some never seen again.
Long accepted the fact that people come and go, difference: I still miss them.
The random people.

This year I finally face the reality.
Went back to Peirce and YJ.
Talk to teachers, reminisce the old good times.
Actually many are still there, still caring.
陈老师，谢谢您的教导与关心。
我虽然从未当你正牌的学生，但你仍然分享指点。
感恩。
Mrs George, Miss Luo, Miss Sim, Miss Lim
Uncle jackson. =)
Miss Hong, Mrs Chang, Mdm Nah, Miss Tan, Mr Ong..
当蓝与黄老师说：“你是我们的骄傲。”，心中的那份感动无法形容。
那勉励如此熟悉，那份肯定如此贴切。
谢谢老师们。

这一切不禁让我想起了《再别康桥》。
我需要用我心中的那把尺，好好规划我的人生。

2 March 11(Wed)
Tuition R & J.
Tuition J & G.
Meet Mingming, got her a sunflower and a pink rose for her bday.
22 year old le. Jiayou yeah?
6 years passed since I first know her. =)
明明！你长大了哦！=)
Chat, slack. Another random but enjoyable nite.

1 March 11 (Tue)
Meet Wei Qiang to settle car stuff.
So many things need to take note of. =s

Gave tuition to J & G.
J is really making good progress. =)
Worried for G though.

Grandma's birthday, can't celebrate though.
Had a simple dinner at her place.
Didnt talk much, merely watching tv.
Sometimes it's just the presence.
Times like this, I question myself.
Why am I even volunteering at Lions Befriender, when I didn't spend or fork out time to be with my grannies?
It's different was an excuse I used.
Time to eliminate that and accompany mummy when she visits gandma every evening,whenever possible.
不知为何，妈妈的孝顺、的开心，如此简单但遥不可及。

Ice-cream at Gelare with Miss Elenda Quek.
It was a random meet up, but a nice one.
Haha, in fact it's our first meet up as friends.
有些人果然萍水相逢但一见如故，如此亲。=)
These people encourage me subtle and randomly.

Smile =)
11:35 AM

Monday, February 21, 2011

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如果没有你莫文蔚

hey　我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

hey　我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你我在哪里
又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已

hey我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否也像我一样在想你

萧的版本，是细腻高亢版的；
倪的版本，是落寞悲伤版的。
两者我都很喜欢，因为都感动了我，每一次听，心里头就会揪一下。。。

Smile =)
12:04 PM

Friday, February 11, 2011

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It's not difficult after all.
Not that sore anymore.

It is hard to be disciplined.
And i thank God for the love and care of the angel He sent.

其实现在的我很幸福　＝）
I need to be more focus and get my priorities rite, that's all.

Smile =)
3:20 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

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书桌上的香水
你沉默的背对
只剩下那一点点
还是闻得到从前

西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言

从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案

我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停

感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试图让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好

感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头

选择性失忆或许对你我都好…
Xue Hu：We probably wouldn't worry so much about what people think of us if we only knew how seldom they do.

Smile =)
12:37 PM

Thursday, January 27, 2011

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Posted:
Aw Jiemingand they all end off with "It's not you, it's me."

5 likes
Comment:
Aw Jieming this is the most popular breakup line. it's better than “I just don’t think we’re suitable. ", "I've got no more feelings for you"
Tuesday at 1:58pm ·

Joleen Ong i just thought of one! "I think you deserve so much better"
Tuesday at 2:00pm ·

Aw Jieming omg! " You're a good guy/gal. i'm sure you can find someone that appreciates you, just that the person isnt me."
Tuesday at 2:02pm ·

Wanru Wong what if both of them say it the same time?
Tuesday at 2:24pm ·

Joleen Ong then happy! good right? No win no lose
Tuesday at 2:28pm ·

Aw Jieming both say at the same time,means it's damn good,means no heartache!
Tuesday at 7:34pm ·

Tan XuanHong Woah... Power...u got it right... "It's not u, it's me"...
Yesterday at 12:36am ·

Aw Jieming hahaha,it's always like that whether is you dump or ppl dump.
Yesterday at 7:59am ·

下一站幸福：The problem lies with me, not you.

看着这些银幕，我只能苦笑。
果然印证了人生如戏……

more of, "it's not about u, it's about me.
don't you get it? silly.."

我了…
心无旁骛时，最安……

my new hobby:
see facebook post up.
not that i'm judging or find my friends amusing.
Just that it is interesting to see how people post their thoughts, feelings, weird comments...
i think i'm starting to learn and reflect more after seeing all those post.
They also make me realise life, though varies individually but many face the same issue.
The only difference is how people handle it, the time needed, the mentality..
How over the years, people never changed a single bit, how some indulge in self denial thinking they changed for the better but realise they are still in the same shit, pretending to be somebody they are not, posting motivational statement daily but personally not at all motivated by it, thanking God for every single bit but complains about all trivial stuff, how wonderful their relationship is but end up in relationshit, job anger,studies fustration..blah blah blah blah...
depress, anger, emo...all the same negative feelings.
i'm only human. I do feel the same many times.
Just that I no longer surface it and put it on the table top for display.
learning to take it on my own stride. or rather, find no need to be known anymore.
Hmm, ironically i find myself no longer able to paraphase or find the right words to describe how i'm feeling or thinking...
silence is where i write it out, thinking is my diary. and forgetting is my hideout for my diary.

Smile =)
8:03 AM

Thursday, January 20, 2011

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我想你会很喜欢这首歌吧？
我很喜欢。
因为它给了我彻底的痛。

第一次深深地欣赏到mv配搭歌曲的那份感动
情景交融
泪，湿透了无神以久的眼眶……

“其实
我们没谈过恋爱吧
我们根本没有在一起过
你说的那段感情是没有的
对不对”

给我一个理由忘记-A-Lin(黄丽玲)

雨都停了这片天灰什么呢
我还记得你说我们要快乐
深夜里的脚步声总是刺耳
害怕寂寞就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯

只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭着

给我一个理由忘记那么爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边却在我的心里

“（朋友）,你现在有空吗？
没关系，没关系
对啊，没事啊”

当我走在去过的每个地方
总会听到你那最自由的笑
当我回到一个人住的地方
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那件外套

我找不到理由忘记大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃我等你的决心
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边却在我的心里
我想你

“明明都已经删除干净了
你还是要不停的出现
你快点离开　好吗”

Smile =)
11:03 AM

♥

属于
我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢

或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是他吧命中早就注定了她的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊

Smile =)
10:53 AM

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接受--梁静茹

仿佛上一分钟　你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会　开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空　却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容

仿佛已经自由　下一个我变成风
吹过你的脸孔差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶　
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂　觉得心言不由衷

我们都接受　一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头　不能退后也无法向前走

爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由　
剩下的那些感动　能记得多久

Smile =)
10:41 AM

♥

突然想起这首歌，你第一次试唱我就在你左右。
看着歌词，我是不是很傻？
当你在唱这首歌时，心中是否有个放不下的对象？
可能我又是胡思乱想，但若是真的，我还真可笑。
但我还是因为你而喜欢上这首歌。
我想，我一直活在你放不下的过去里。

我知道－By2

“你好吗？我很想你！”

从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有　你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
一直忘了说　我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然　分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过　
所以　即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会　在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实　这份爱没停过

“xxx，我很喜欢你！”

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你　还在我左右
答应你我会好好过不让这些眼泪白流

“你知道吗？我很想你。。。。。。”

Smile =)
10:24 AM

Monday, January 17, 2011

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2011. =)
2 weeks past.
Trying to keep myself really occupied.
Attend all sort of gathering and organise a few.
It's a new year after all, gotta start it rite.
I remind myself over and over again, I will not permit anyone to make me feel sad.
No one else except for myself.
No emo songs and phases allowed.
Less words, emotions and rubbish.

Gotten a car. Have to thank mum and sis for their love. =)

For work, it's responsibility.
And in few months time I need to consider the bond.
For now, I think i would like to stable myself in this career.

Chapel, a new start of hard word I guess.

Lord, family, friends, self...
I put them all in your mighty hands.

F told me, "what to do? Life moves on."
F's right. It become a kind of sweet yet vengeful statement.
All is well, though sometimes the past is back to haunt one down.
Especially I really can't control, when it comes to dreams and nightmares.
Had a couple horrible ones. One is about death, the other about confrontation. Woke up perspiring profusely and tearing. That really spoilt my day. I know I should behaviour like an adult, it is afterall, dream.
But the reality is as cruel and numb.
I understand many things cant be forced. Just that the pain is real.
I wrote you a song, and a poem for that song. And i choose to remember no parts of it.
That is the safest place where no one else nor u will ever know, maybe not even myself.
I once had it, like you or maybe not really.
I bought, wanna buy stuffs for u. all the things keeping with me. To give or not to?
Wrote and type many unsend letters and msgs.
I will delete and burnt all off one day. The day will be soon. Cos I suppose u want me to be.
Yes, lotsa misses. But the other side of the story? well.
Wont wanna have any more rejection feelings.
From my diary to facebook status in 2010, many smiley arises since I know u.
For that, thanks.
I'm not as impactful I guess. Sometimes I wish you're not so cool. Sometimes..
And many times I know many things which I choose not to.
Denial kills.
I would say I have been coping well, as compared to the past, and as I supposed I would towards you. I have choose to leave you for quite some time. And to make you feel that what you have decided one month ago is a good decision. Are you happy?
Just that, from the day I took my departure from your base, i dunnoe how to proceed from there in the air. Could u help me in the midst and even landing?
I dunnoe how to stay connected my friend.
And that is exactly why I felt so heavy hearted after waking up from that nitemare yesterday.
I actually stay connected with u in my own sub-conscious world. and that kills.
I've decided to break that very own curse i've set for myself.
No more karma, if i wont allow it to happen to me.
And that i learnt: to love, no more absolute.

Mixed feelings but yap... :
White Flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction
To come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of it's over
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there will be there still
I'll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I've moved on

Smile =)
11:27 AM

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

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You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She’s not perfect but you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.

Smile =)
9:07 AM

Monday, November 08, 2010

♥

I am only one, but still I am one.
I cannot do everything, but still I can do something;
and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something that I can do
~Helen Keller

Smile =)
5:13 PM

♥

School term over.
Busy with meetings and reviews.
My first batch of student done well. =)
Starting to open up, mingles with some colleagues. =)

Was back in Zouk last week. =)
Dead beat, but ironically, i feel so alive and refresh! =)
Must be the people there. =)

I mentioned in September:
"3 more months to year end, I am anticipating to much changes along the way. What/who may come and go, gain and lost, happy and sadness... Accepting the expecting of unexpectedness together with the expectedness, isn't that life has been all the while? At least for the past 22 years of my life. =P "
Maybe I have to learn to take it as easy as how I post it.

Relationship needs communication.
Communication takes more than one to listen,one to talk.
But also, the one who listens to speak up and the person who speaks to listen.
Then again, will the person who listen give the person who talks a chance to listen?
When both decide not to talk no more,u know things fail...
When all fails, you know nothing can establish.
However, did both parties even try to say it cant be establish?
You know you're old when u start to doubt romance,fairy tales and something call love.

山不转，路转；
路不转，人转；
人不转，心转；

心转，念转一切都能迎刃而解。
烦恼往往是个人无中生有。
加油吧！
看开点，要拿得起放得下，放不下也要放。
可能最后的疼爱真的是手放开。。。

苏永康 - 爱一个人好难
你说你还是喜欢孤单
其实你怕被我看穿
你怕属于我们的船
漂漂荡荡靠不了岸

事到如今没有答案
我的真心为你牵绊
不管相见的夜多么难堪
简简单单的说爱是不爱

想要把你忘记真的好难
思念的痛在我心里纠缠
朝朝暮暮的期盼
永远没有答案
为何当初你选择一刀两断

听你说声爱我真的好难
曾经说过的话风吹云散
站在天秤的两端一样的为难
唯一的答案爱一个人好难

Smile =)
4:27 PM

♥

Saw this video, song written and composed by a junior.
Think it is great.. =)

♥ You (by Lynnette & Min Zhi)
every time you come around,
my heart palpitates, it won't slow down.
i actually know you're coming my way.
i try to be cool, but i hyperventilate.

walking with you by my side,
lovestruck girls like zombies on our left and right.
feels like they're saying, "All hail the king!"
makes me feel like i'm a queen.

ohh wonder what is on your mind
when it comes to us.
if you're gonna take any longer,
i'll just be gone.

you're just too perfect
how can i measure up?
maybe it's time i stopped
dreaming.

Smile =)
4:23 PM

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

♥

你让我懂爱
他的温热把我搂着没说太多这感觉拥有
日出和日落都会牵手走过那样的温柔
Woo Oh Ho

安定踏实多麽享受是曲折过才有的念头
所以有时候在幸福的时候会想泪流

你让我懂爱很像风
你让我懂爱会流动
风大到让我能飞上云朵
就代表也能够把我给甩落

你让我懂爱像唱歌
你让我懂爱要决择
我最爱听的未必是我能唱的
选适合的才能唱得动人深刻

安定踏实多麽享受是曲折过才有的念头
所以有的时候在幸福的时候会想泪流

你让我懂爱很像风
你让我懂爱会流动
风大到让我能飞上云朵
就代表也能够把我给甩落

你让我懂爱像唱歌
你让我懂爱要决择
我最爱听的未必是我能唱的
选适合的才能唱得动人深刻

我终於明白了你并没有带走什麽
而是留下一个　会帮我的挫折

Smile =)
2:39 PM

♥

你不知道的事
蝴蝶擦几次眼睛才学会飞行
夜空撒满了星星但即刻会落地
我飞行等你堕落之际
很靠近还听见呼吸
对不起我却没抓紧你

你不知道我为什麼离开你我解释不能说
放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨碎落满地 在心里清醒
你不知道我为什麼狠下心还悬著你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事

Smile =)
2:31 PM

♥

爱就对了 歌手：S.H.E
总是要流一些滚烫热泪才能换来对于爱的体会
你看世界没有毁灭心也没有碎其他的就交给时间解决

你当然可以重新再爱受过伤的更懂怎样爱与被爱
所以别再理有他的回忆有空再回忆
离开你的只有他但是爱还在

听我说爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了痛苦或快乐都是我的

我当然经历过你现在的感受
我想那是人必经的折磨 Yeah~
也许每个人都该是某个人成长的助手
受一点苦痛帮助她成熟

听我说爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了痛苦或快乐都是我的

别探听他的线索别等待他会回头爱~
不喜欢看人软弱
别继续把心封锁别躲在伤心里头爱~
万一来了别错过

爱是对的错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人而爱错人
可是爱就对了遇到下一个爱上就爱了痛苦或快乐都是我的

听我说爱是对的错的是别人自以为懂爱才会又爱人又伤害人
可是爱就对了爱了就值得爱这门功课艰深但快乐
爱就对了

听我说爱是对的错的是别人自以为懂爱才会又爱人又伤害人
可是爱就对了爱了就值得爱这门功课艰深但快乐爱就对了
万一来了别错过

Smile =)
2:23 PM

♥

没那麼简单
没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发裡

相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

Smile =)
2:09 PM

♥

对的人
你問在我心中　是否還苦惱
那次受傷　否決了愛的好
謝謝你的關照　我一切都好
一個人　不算困擾

愛雖然很美妙　卻不能為了寂寞又陷了泥沼

愛要耐心等待　仔細尋找　感覺很重要
寧可空白了手　等候一次　真心的擁抱
我相信在〔這個〕世界上　一定會遇到
對的人出現〔在眼角〕

那次流過的淚　讓我學習到
如何祝福　如何轉身不要
在眼淚體會到　與自己擁抱
愛不是一種需要　是一種對照

能願意為了一份愛付出去多少
然後得到多少並不計較
當我想清楚的時候　
我就算已經準備好
放手去愛　海闊天高　
wo wo wo wo yeah

Smile =)
1:59 PM

Friday, October 22, 2010

♥

《心痛，心寒》

周围已没人了，走的走，离的离。
快乐与笑容也被牵走了。

我承认，自己不佳，是个自私自利，自以为是，不懂得关心别人的家伙。
做人做得非常失败，凡事也做不好。
我在此放下所谓的尊颜，我错了，对不起各位。

我知道很多事已来不及了，失去的再也无法从头来过。
我不奢望饶恕，但愿自己不会重蹈覆辙。
我有很多缺点，会好好反省，忏悔，尽力改过。
还请留下的好友多多包含，非常抱歉。

我们之间的回忆，我会铭记在心。
在此，我会把你们都放开。
我不配。

你们对我的好，我既然失去了才知道…
已太迟了…

我不会再执着了……
我应该消失…会消失…

Smile =)
6:15 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2010

♥

《空》

Smile =)
3:43 PM

Saturday, September 04, 2010

♥

September. 3/4 of the year passed.
much thoughts and reflections. =)
Thank God, for the lessons learnt.

Learning to take things easy. =)
the old cliche: Life move on.. =)

sometime one has to let go of the unnecessary burden,before one has the strength to embark on another journey.
Though I'm frequently at the cross road, each junction is different.
Learning...
I cannot expect friends to stand by me always. I know I'm not there for them too.
Since all is well in own zone, I'll learn to cope with it.
Let there be no conflicts. =)
Don't be mistaken, I'll still holding on to each and individual.
Dearly in my heart.
Should there be a day we meet, you'll know I'm still the same old friend. =)
not in person but by person.
If u know what I mean..

We can't stop the process of growing up, can only look into the prospective in which we see it.
I want this process to be an enjoyable one. As much as I know hurts come in as a package.
Still,I'm hopeful. =)

Right know. I just wanna be settled and stable. =)

3 more months to year end, I am anticipating to much changes along the way.
What/who may come and go, gain and lost, happy and sadness...
Accepting the expecting of unexpectedness together with the expectedness, isn't that life has been all the while?
At least for the past 22 years of my life. =P

wisdom, courage, faith...I pray..

Smile =)
3:57 PM

Monday, June 28, 2010

♥

School reopening in few hours.
I'm close to breaking down again.
This pre-school reopen blue never fail to set in since Sec..
Nevertheless, am glad I played hard this whole June.
So hard that I can't remember what I have been doing.
-shake.head-

Know some new friends from Tioman trip, Army Napfa, club...
Some friends whom I kinda adore and respect?
Character, personalities.. =)
And did manage to catch up with some old friends.. =)

received one of the biggest surprise today.
Thanks Mollie, puaysung,meifeng and jiexin.
Belated but heart warming indeed.
and thanks, u never ever show but u have always been the one who love xuan. selflessly..
appreciate,wholeheartedly.

kinda emotionally unstable once again...counting down to the hours before heading to school..=s

Smile =)
1:13 AM

Thursday, June 17, 2010

♥

A lovely trip to Tioman.
First snorkeling experience, awesome.
Get to know some friends, a new "godpa"..
Interesting life stories... =)
Will definitely return, just a matter of time.
Miss travelling already.

Had NAPFA today, been long long long time since I last took it.
Got to work on it more.
Due to the weather condition, we had to retake it again next week.
However, the rain brings us together.
Getting to know all the "tough" girls..
ice-breaking, breakfast, gossips, chats... =))
Anticipating...

Holiday is ending, time really pass fast.
Am really glad that many things were resolved. =)
Time spend with all the love ones, with myself...
I miss "stoning"...

My sister got me an Ipod Nano for my birthday! =)
-loves.lotsa-

Thanks God for everything.. =)

Smile =)
12:31 AM

Thursday, May 27, 2010

♥

Letters. Didn't know that it has the ability to make my heart pump faster.
Bills, insurance, interviews, enrollment..
hmm...received quite a number of letters..
woo~~ excited..

Yeah!!! and it marks the start of my holiday! =))
meet up, party, reading, snapshots, outing, can't wait for my trip...

hopefully the unfinished matter can be settle asap and properly.
let this go well, pls...
let it past..

breakthrough, reborn, trust, hands, pray...missing church...

training..sourcing..

it is not the end of the race, not yet...
i will spur on..

Smile =)
5:38 PM

♥

Somethings are learnt the hard way..
Learnt and learning still..
Yes, I do have temper if u dunnoe..
And yes, I gave up on you,us and our friendship.
Indeed, somethings and someone are not worth holding on.
Amazed by how things work and change..
It's ok. Life moves on.

Finally getting my break, from work, studies..=)
1 more day, ageing again. Wisedom must definitely be acquired with age.
That makes the difference each year, month, day and seconds.

Someone rebuked, "why u seems to know so much yet don't know how to (handle that situation)?"
I am learning.. Price comes along.And when the time comes, pay up.

Still quite a lot of uncertainties, next month is a critical month for decision.
Don't wanna waste time making the redundant mistake.

Lord, I pray for the guidance and wisdom needed to make the right choice in my life.
I put my trust in You,Amen

Smile =)
1:11 AM

Monday, April 12, 2010

♥

Days, weeks, months, years past...
In a transition phase again, a relatively crucial one.
Am really glad that I'm having all the support from my friends. =)
I really don't know what to do without you guys..
Thanks, really appreciate.
All the advise, time spent means a great deal to me.

5 down, 3 more modules to be completed before getting my diploma. =)
Learnt much in this course, thank God for the lecturers and preaching..
Hopefully my admission to uni will be a smooth one.
Working in school is awesome, have a bunch of real nice kids..
Tuitioning is good.
Join a short term dance performance, ignites my interest in embarking on this journey.
Had been working out constantly. Gym, swim... =)
Family has been real missed, thanks for not giving up on me. Hope I can catch up the lost time.
Buddies had been real busy lately, can't seem to meet up that often. =s haha, thank God for BB! Feeling connected everyday.
I felt blissed with my two Bs, seems like I'm a lucky chap with 2 weekend Bs. =) Never failed to shower me with love.
Bought insurance and saving hard for uni fees.
Love? better dun come. Enjoying my singlehood. =)

Personal development, growth needed.
Had been missing out much.

In all, thank God.
I appreciate all the people and things in my life, good or bad, embracing it all.
I've learnt and learning.
Praying for the wisdom and strength in all my decision and doing. =)
Have faith and work hard..
Principles, morals, values, ethics important.
Life have to go on, move forward well and embrace every seconds.
Happiness, self attain and fight for.
What a wonderful world! =)

And yes, I'm smiling throughout while typing this entry.
Haha.. =) -cheers-

Smile =)
12:11 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

♥

Knew the signs wasn't right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused
My hearts bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldnt see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You"ll be out of my mind
I'll be over you

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see

There's a life out there for me

You can stop lying...

Smile =)
12:45 PM

♥

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could
Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Thanks for the memories.. =)

Smile =)
7:40 AM

Sunday, March 07, 2010

♥

我静静的抚摸你的头发眼瞳中流泻出对爱无力的匮乏

我的心感觉好害怕一种莫名巨大的悲伤悄悄降临在我的身旁

我淡淡的伪装我的彷徨沉默中彷佛我们之间有一道墙

我的脸笑的好牵强一切用心规划的梦想如今看来是那么勉强

我看不透你的想法多么可怕的想法

怎么去爱都是惩罚怎么选择都是一场心伤忘记我还是忘记他

我看不透你的想法多么伤心的想法

难道你已硬了心肠怎么决定都是一场渺茫忘记我还是忘记他

爱已经让人无法自拔难道我还要继续装傻继续挣扎

我不愿再自欺欺人，但是情不自禁，或许只能顺其自然。

Smile =)
5:41 PM